look at me go

This week way better then last week. I was busy all weekend so I was not at home thinking about food. My only down fall was I didn't work out this week. But then I spent 3 hours in the yard doing all that crappy stuff. I know that is not a reason not too. I need to work on that. but really who wants to work out all the time anyway. It is one thing I really need to start doing. I did lose weight this week and only have 8 pounds to go to my first goal. It feels good to be so close.

I have been sleeping really well and that has help my mood. My parents were not a round so i finally got a weekend without having to do stuff with them. I got things done I need to do for a while. Don't get me wrong I love my parents but sometimes I just need me time. You would think that living a lone you would think I would have a lot of me time. you would be surprised by how much they want me to do stuff.

So plan for the week.
keep doing the same with food and try harder to work out. (wish me luck on that one)

tough week

So this week was rough. I didn't lose anything. The up side I didn't gain anything either. I had great support all week Thank you Angie and Megan. I got two messages to hang up on the mirror in the bathroom to help remind me of a few things. The first says. "Krystal You are a beautiful, sweet, smart Person.Don't you forget it. Have a great day." the other is "it's okay to be a bitch. Why? because it feels good." Two things I need to be remind of every once in a while. Thank you Angie for the signs they are up on the mirror so everyone morning I will see them and remember. Next week will be a good week. I can feel it already.

What Happened

So this week so far has been tough and I don't know why. I am hunger all the time and my mood has not been the greatest. Maybe it is the fact that i have not gotten a lot of sleep the last week. Maybe it is just the way it will be this week. I thought i was doing well and not eating a lot of stuff. But the scale says different. This last half of the week is going to get ugly, I think. Good thing I am going walking with Angie tomorrow and my Cd's arrived to day. I came home for lunch to get them yesterday and they were not here so while I was home I had lunch. Normally I skip it. (I know that is not the right thing to do but I have been doing it for years now and it works for me. ) So today the same thing but the Cd's were here. so no tempting to drive home and check now for the rest of the week.

Work has been crazy so that is not helping with the fact that I want to get away for a while. Everyone is just getting on my nerves, even Greg and normal he is the last one to piss me off. I have been keeping to myself so I don't snap at anyone. Poor Greg, he must think I am crazy half the time. I hope to get some better sleep and hope that helps. The sad thing is nothing happened. That could be the problem. My life is kind of boring. But sometimes it is too much for me to go somewhere and meet people. What is funny is I have a ton of friends at work and get along with just about everyone.
So why am I so scared to go out. I will tell you why. It's the being overweight. I have used that as my excuse to hide from people. That way I am not hurt by anyone. But let me tell you it is very lonely. Most of the time, I am okay with it. But some days I am ready to go crazy sitting in my house watching the same things over and over or even new things.

So soon I will need to get a goal about getting out of the house. But I think I need to work on the first two. I am close on one if this week doesn't undo it all. And the other, working out 5 times a week is slowly going. I am up to 3 days a week but not 5 yet.

Well enough of my rambling thoughts for the day. I have plenty to talk about it. Trust me. I think this is why I don't want my family (well most of my family to see this) Would they think me crazy or what if it happens to be their turn in front of the firing squad that is my head and how I feel. Some of it would be surprising or upsetting. And it feels good to be able to get this out without having to hear their side of it. I get that with out having them know how I feel. Maybe I should Man Up and tell them but for know this is how I am going to do it.

this week

So this week was very good to me. I lost 4.5. Hopefully next week will be just as good. I had a hard day yesterday with just being more hungry and I eat more then I normally do because of it so Hopefully the hunger cravings have gone way. I worked out this morning already and i have a lot planed to keep my self busy this week.