what the hell

Okay So I know I have not posted anything in a while. Between the computer having problems. Me having problems and work driving me crazy I have not been up to posting anything. So here is a update on the losing weight. NOTHING. Okay granted I know why. I been emailing my sister what i eat now for a couple of weeks but still can't find the strength to keep the weight going down. I don't eat a lot but I don't eat healthy either. That needs to change. I been walking at work but now that the weather has turned cold I only go once a day not two. I need to work on doing more in the excise area. which should help out in the losing weight area. I need to work on sleeping (which I should be doing now) and that should help my mood. I need to get things off my chest (which should again help my mood) I think I need to change my whole life style. I feel like i am in a rut. I do the same thing day in and day out. I need to be more aggressive with the weight loss and excise.
I feel very disappointed in myself for this lack of trying. I know I should be working out all the time but it so been so easy not to. It is so easy to make excuse for this or that. and then I get mad at my self for not trying hard enough. I beat my self up over this every night. and tonight it just got to the breaking point. Maybe this is the turning around point. I don't know. I am hopping my next post will be positive and will be a much need improvement.

down a pound

So this week was rough was up to 262 but since it was that time of the month last week and trying very hard this week I went down to 256 I looks like a lot but since i was 257 on the tracker I only lost one. but I am glad for that one since I had not been trying. But last week I really tried and this week I am glad to start on a good note. it makes it easier to keep going when you lost some. so bring on next week.

after a much need Break

So I didn't think I need a break from the weight loss but looking back over the last couple of months I noticed I had not been really trying. That I was just maintain the weight I had lost. So I am stepping it up. To start again. I am glad I had not gained anything but now I am starting to fell that I just don't want to stay where I am at. so The exercise tapes are out. and I have started to use them. plus I feel like i want to do this. that was what was hard then last couple of months I just didn't fell it. I knew I was not trying and didn't really want to try. so now back on the horse and get this done. I feel good about this again and want to lose the weight. My only down fall this week is I am going to the fair but hopefully all that walking will balance out the food. I will just have to watch what I eat. Also going to my sisters so I told her to help with it also. Here I go. Hopefuly this will be a good month and the weight will start to come off again. I want to see that tracker move.

alot happening but weight loss

It has been a crazy week. I am having the floors done in my kitchen and had to move all the stuff out then it got delayed by a couple of days but by Tuesday they should be done. It will be good to get that done so I can get back to the diet. I have had a hard time staying focus on this 20 pounds. I am determined to make it this week. I will be glad when the floors are done and move everything back to its spot. Next week should be better

This was a good week. I am down 2 more pounds. not much happened this week weight wise so this will be a short post. I am just glad I lost something.

long time no see

I have been so bad about posting anything. sorry about that. but it has been busy. With getting a new car, Doc appointments, have my nephews birthday party (I only had one piece of cake so not bad) went to a base ball game ( didn't do well there. Had chicken strips and cheese fries and ice cream ) Had my sister set me up on a online dating site. (Angie I so need to talk to you about that. :) ) But I have manged to lose 1 pound after two weeks on maintaining. and it is not even Saturday so we will see if I can lose a little more.

tough week

After a tough week last week I am back on the ban wagon. Last week I had major problems with stuff in my house. so It was tough to stay on the diet when I was mad and frustrated. But this week with everything fixed and working again or replaced I am back on the Diet. so Keep your fingers crossed that everything goes well this week.

FIrst Reward

When I started this with my sister 4 months ago We set a goal and a reward. For my first goal of 26 pounds lost we would get manicures and pedicures since we have never done them before. Last Saturday My sister was in town and since i only had a pound to go we went a head and got them. (As of this post I have lost that last pound) I had a lot of fun. I was nice to hand out with my sister and get to do girl things. I thought the lady ( well she was younger then me and Megan) was very nice. It took us about 2 hours to get both hands and feet done. then when it was all done my sister and I went to Wall-greens and got some cute stickers to add to our painted nails. All weekend Chris keep saying that we got our nails done it was so cute.


I feel great and am ready for the next goal. IT doesn't feel like I have been doing this for 4 months. It has not always been easy and i have a long way to go but to make it to my first goal is a great feeling.

finally

So have two very rough weeks thanks to it being my time of the month and gaining a lot of water weight. I have finally hit my goal weight. Now the new goal is 20 more pounds unless it comes off really fast then it will be 30. So here we go on part 2.

1 pound left

1 Pound to go. My sister is coming next so if I can lose one more pound by then we get to do the first reward. I need to start calling around to see how much Manicures and Pedicures are. Then hopefully my next post will be about the reward. I have never done a Pedicure before so this should be fun and exciting. To be honest it does not feel I have been doing this for 3 months now. Some weeks were tough and some where easy. Last week I was really motivated to keep going. I have started to walk with some friends at work on breaks so that should help get me to the goal of working out 5 times a week. I don't feel hungry all the time so that is a plus. It is easier during the week being at work and I still struggle with the weekend. but I make plans for the weekend to keep busy. Man my house never look this good. this weekend. Going to my brothers to help rip out cabinets and tomorrow it will be Trimming the pine tree in my back yard. plus the normal cleaning laundry mowing the yard stuff. I am ready for the this week and hope I will be able to lose that 1 pound. But I know 1 pound (even if it is the last one) can be very hard to lose. Keep your Fingers crossed.

another okay week

I the last two weeks I gained 1 pound. Guess that is not bad but it has been rough. I went to the dentist two weeks ago and my teeth still hurt. But they are getting better. This week is to try harder to lose at least 1 pound. I know I have not written in a while but things are kind of the same and not much to write. If things get better I am sure i will write more.

Doing great

I am doing really well this week. I lost another 3 pounds and only have 4 more to go on my first goal. I need to come up with a new goal and reward. My sister is doing this with me and she has reached her first goal and then some. She came here last week and gained a little but she is still under the first goal. So it looks like in July we will be getting manicures and pedicures. I have never had a pedicure before so this should be fun. so this coming week I will be working on losing the last 4 pounds and coming up with goal 2 and reward 2.

I feel good. I don't think I look like I lost that much. Megan says I have but I can't tell. I did notice for the first time today my shirt was a little lose and I have to pull my pants up all the time. (I think I need a belt) Since I am not sure if I am ready to move into a size small jeans. Plus I don't want to buy new ones if i keep losing weight. I am will have to buy new clothes at the end and would rather spend the money once not 5 different times But I do have some old ones in storage I may need to get out in a couple of months or so. I don't feel frustrated with this and feel like I am ready to get with the second goal. I still have not given up pop but I am drink Diet Cherry Pepsi and that is a treat for me. I need to work on having a balance meal also. And not just cutting everything down. I need to still work on the Working out. I am up to 3 days a week but have not hit 5. My Support team has been great and I can't thank them enough for all the help the last 2 months. Hope they are ready for the months a head.

look at me go

This week way better then last week. I was busy all weekend so I was not at home thinking about food. My only down fall was I didn't work out this week. But then I spent 3 hours in the yard doing all that crappy stuff. I know that is not a reason not too. I need to work on that. but really who wants to work out all the time anyway. It is one thing I really need to start doing. I did lose weight this week and only have 8 pounds to go to my first goal. It feels good to be so close.

I have been sleeping really well and that has help my mood. My parents were not a round so i finally got a weekend without having to do stuff with them. I got things done I need to do for a while. Don't get me wrong I love my parents but sometimes I just need me time. You would think that living a lone you would think I would have a lot of me time. you would be surprised by how much they want me to do stuff.

So plan for the week.
keep doing the same with food and try harder to work out. (wish me luck on that one)

tough week

So this week was rough. I didn't lose anything. The up side I didn't gain anything either. I had great support all week Thank you Angie and Megan. I got two messages to hang up on the mirror in the bathroom to help remind me of a few things. The first says. "Krystal You are a beautiful, sweet, smart Person.Don't you forget it. Have a great day." the other is "it's okay to be a bitch. Why? because it feels good." Two things I need to be remind of every once in a while. Thank you Angie for the signs they are up on the mirror so everyone morning I will see them and remember. Next week will be a good week. I can feel it already.

What Happened

So this week so far has been tough and I don't know why. I am hunger all the time and my mood has not been the greatest. Maybe it is the fact that i have not gotten a lot of sleep the last week. Maybe it is just the way it will be this week. I thought i was doing well and not eating a lot of stuff. But the scale says different. This last half of the week is going to get ugly, I think. Good thing I am going walking with Angie tomorrow and my Cd's arrived to day. I came home for lunch to get them yesterday and they were not here so while I was home I had lunch. Normally I skip it. (I know that is not the right thing to do but I have been doing it for years now and it works for me. ) So today the same thing but the Cd's were here. so no tempting to drive home and check now for the rest of the week.

Work has been crazy so that is not helping with the fact that I want to get away for a while. Everyone is just getting on my nerves, even Greg and normal he is the last one to piss me off. I have been keeping to myself so I don't snap at anyone. Poor Greg, he must think I am crazy half the time. I hope to get some better sleep and hope that helps. The sad thing is nothing happened. That could be the problem. My life is kind of boring. But sometimes it is too much for me to go somewhere and meet people. What is funny is I have a ton of friends at work and get along with just about everyone.
So why am I so scared to go out. I will tell you why. It's the being overweight. I have used that as my excuse to hide from people. That way I am not hurt by anyone. But let me tell you it is very lonely. Most of the time, I am okay with it. But some days I am ready to go crazy sitting in my house watching the same things over and over or even new things.

So soon I will need to get a goal about getting out of the house. But I think I need to work on the first two. I am close on one if this week doesn't undo it all. And the other, working out 5 times a week is slowly going. I am up to 3 days a week but not 5 yet.

Well enough of my rambling thoughts for the day. I have plenty to talk about it. Trust me. I think this is why I don't want my family (well most of my family to see this) Would they think me crazy or what if it happens to be their turn in front of the firing squad that is my head and how I feel. Some of it would be surprising or upsetting. And it feels good to be able to get this out without having to hear their side of it. I get that with out having them know how I feel. Maybe I should Man Up and tell them but for know this is how I am going to do it.

this week

So this week was very good to me. I lost 4.5. Hopefully next week will be just as good. I had a hard day yesterday with just being more hungry and I eat more then I normally do because of it so Hopefully the hunger cravings have gone way. I worked out this morning already and i have a lot planed to keep my self busy this week.

walking

I stared walking with part of my support team. Let me tell you how out of shape I am in. Man I didn't now it was that bad. It made me look at myself and see how lazy I have been. Time to really change that side of me. I should walk at work on my lunch then read my book. but the weather has not been helpful. I need to pull out the exercise video's that Angie gave me and get working. Maybe i need another goal to work on. We walk 2 days a week and I should work out 3 days at home. So starting now. I will go walking Wednesday and Friday and the dvd Monday, Saturday and Sunday. I have a hard time on the weekends not to eat since I have a lot of time on my hands so Maybe this will help with some of that. On a different note, Can I just say how much I hate Diet Soda. But I have found cherry coke zero. I think if i want a pop then that is what I will get. Work so need to add that to the pop machine at work. They had diet cherry pepsi but the last time he filled it there was no cherry. :( Granted I should not have pop anyway but that may be one thing I can't give up I just need to find some good Diet pop and not regular. But I have only had 2 pops that were not diet this month so that is not bad since I had like 20 last month alone. so I have improved, right?

Here we go.

So this is my third week on the diet. I have the blog up, my support team in place and I am ready to start this new chapter in my life. I am hoping this is a place I can be honest, let go and by the end be a new person. I am hoping I can open up here and just write what i fell. Some good and some bad. I know there will be bad days and good days. So far I doing great had even with a vacation I have lost 9 pounds. I have set up time with a friend to get some walking in at nights and some workout dvd's too. So Here we go. Time to get down to business and See what happens.

back from vacation

So I am back from my vacation now. This week has been good. I am not starving all the time and I think my body is adjusting. I feel like i have eaten well. Today was hard since I had a friend take me to lunch then Mom invited me over for dinner. so tomorrow on the scale and see what it says. Hopefully good news.

vaction

I am on vacation and feel like I have done a good job. But we missed dinner last night to go to the Nikki Sixx book signing. So today may not be a great day for the diet.

First Entry

I am trying to lose weight and thought this would be a way to keep me on the bandwagon. I will update my progress week to week. Hopefully I can have tips and let people know how well I am doing. Right now I am doing this with my sister and so it helps to know she has my back. I have to report to her. We will update the weight tracker every Saturday. So check back and see how well I am doing.